“I wish I wasn’t expecting you to show up at my doorstep to say one last goodbye because I know it’s never coming. I wish I didn’t check my phone 50 times a day, hoping your name lit up my screen with an “I miss you” text the way it used to on the random days you did miss me more than usual. I wish you didn’t have to go. I wish I had known that the last time I saw you, I’d be hugging you and pressing my lips against yours for the last time.. Maybe I would’ve done both more carefully in hopes I could have slowed time down to spend more of it appreciating your every touch. I wish you fought as hard as I did to try to make things work despite the distance, even though we knew things would be hard on us both. I wish I could forget you because it hurts so damn much to think about you still. I wish I didn’t fall so fast, feel so deep, and love so widely. They say that distance makes the heart grow fonder.. But really, I wish that distance didn’t exist, not between two hearts at least.”
The perks of being a wallflower